by Gyury Kozmos
This is the painting I start with ... here we are ... ... no head ... all the bodies are missing the body pats or something here in the photos ... ... there are no heads, no hands or no legs ... to explain these neo-expressionist paintings ... Pay attention to the body parts where we have four places ... with breath-taking in mindfullness... the individual parts of the body do give us messages, about our needy feelings ... The heart with the feelings of salvation and healing. The head with ideas that block us from the heart. Interestingly, our ancestors from olden times are the carriers of these feelings in our bodypart members. Those who are the oldest are in the head ... when the corpses have been eaten after wars because they thought it was good for healing. The 15th Century… .We have in our minds the age of the Wounded or Toxic Parent (which is reflected in the false beliefs of the wounded childhood Ego). And in our hearts, the Renewed (Recovering, Rising) Son is the Good Enough Parent or Brother. This painting, for example, contains many heads. That means he's in his head, stuck. The painting is called Spazio, (Space), that is, he left the "space" of personality, because we leave, give ourselves to others (ideas) when we stay in our head.
I want to tell you how I found these paintings ... when I was going to prepare for a Spanish exam and visited a friend in Spain and had an interesting painting on his wall. A woman's legs with a horse head. And this painting reminded me of Erzsébet Báthory, whose husband, the legendary Hungarian chief captain (Nádasdy), reminded me of his true story, who wanted to punish the rebellious Walloon soldiers (the deserters of the Spanish war) and they were sewn into the skin of a horse. And they were placed near the fire to cause harm and pain and to laugh at the sufferers.
And every voice or feeling in the body corresponds to a century. The place of the 15th century is here in our Head ... we call it the Father, the goals, the eye ... and the Sister is in the Back with the Thoughts ... and then at the abdomen or Belly there is the Recovering Son of whom the Mother has taken care of ... and every century has 4 family Attitude- it is always repetitive. There are four family attitudes, and every Attitude in the 4th century corresponds to a known person, a king or an artist. Who had the greatest impact on people in contemporaries. One generation is 25 years old, and this 25-year-old with a different soul setup is repeated 4 times each century.
An Egyptian legend says that Osiris was murdered and cut into parts by his son, Seth, he tore it and híd it in different generations, and his brother Horus helped to revive his body. And this legend is also in the Talmud, with the Messiah, who has no body yet, but wants to appear and therefore collect the members of his body from his various ancestors, because there is a miraculous Rabbi each generation, who is imagined as a Messiah in successive generations ... And in history we find them and their contemporaries, the kings - in every century we find in the family Attitude of the Good Enough Adults - there is one in a century who really found „Jesus”. (Or a body part of Him, that is, an emotional base tone for the century).
And yes, here are the generations and kings within us, because we inherit not only our eyes and ears, but also the problem-solving skills, the IQ, and therefore the Injured and the Good Enough Adult and the Children's Parents are inherited in us - that is, the rational fantasies of an (inherited) adult personality, symbolized by Jesus - that is, in the meaning of the literal word: the Yes-Us - who can pull out (the original Hebrew meaning is this) the injured child from the inside, who always complains, every day ... If we are able to observe this in meditation, breathing, or otherwise.
And generally we are not aware of our situation that we no longer have to get into the child who did not have the solutions when mothers and fathers left them (crèche, kindergarten, orphanage, expectations, boundaries, etc.) and so as children always do need to find an instant comforter - sugar or other drugs - because then as kids yes, they needed that immediate comfort. But today, as adults, if we pay attention, we can take care of ourselves, our balance, with more serious meansor tools.
And today, almost only artists feel that they de feel themselves inside, they do feel their feelings (as body parts) and therefore they do show how we have no unified personality - and this is expressed as missing arms, hands, feet, heads or crates.
And artists such as Cristina, who does express these shortcomings - like the bodies without the limbs in her paintings - she informs us and others that we need to take care of ourselves and not stifle our feelings, not even if bad, not even then.
People who are not related to their personality-parts, so their feelings do not harmonize with their thoughts: they do not pay attention to themselves. Me too I gave out the job of „loving” and „validating” myself to others (friends and partners) and hoped to control the outcome. But it is always a mistake.
We are in a collective hypnosis that says that we have to give love to others and give them love (value). If we give first to ourselves appreciation and love - we are selfish. However, this egoistic collective hypnosis is harmful: it is the hidden lesson of Cristina Persiani's works. (It may be unintentional - because I understand it now, and the meaning of the image, like life, is in the eyes of the viewer.)
Because the emotional "exchange" doesn't work that way. First of all, you have to start by paying attention and seeing that we can see first our value and only then share our self-worth with others - of course, only if those others are in this sharing mode instead of “caring” for the traditional emotional exchange. From consumers we will become creators in the realm of Infinite Love.
The egoists are men and women who live in "barter", who accept the mass market of assessments, i.e. the exchange of love and values, and endure that this is always concluding in some communication problem (and often intense suffering, debate, explanation, or tactful „egg-dance”). I am very grateful to Cristina Persiani, (her name shows that the Hungarian Jazians are her ancestral relatives of Persia) who showed us these lessons with body images in which the limbs were absent and what these shortcomings expressed: to be separate from our feelings, to silence them many times before - and that's why we are not mature adults many times a day. But we can be more and more advanced in changing our ways for more self-care.